| Sorry for not writing for a few days.
On wednesday I had 118 calories and the past few days I have not counted calories. Tomorrow I need to make a habit of it.
SO my stupid grandpa is here. He makes me eat. Yuck.
I probably will not be on until Monday. I might be on tomorrow but I do not know.
I went to a fun Halloween party today and I had one cupcake with pink frosting and m and ms on it. It was under 300 calories, that's I know.
Have fun!
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| I did very good on my diet today... for the first time in 2 weeks. I am so proud of myself. And today was good at school. Although my history teacher told me that my grade was hurting. My grades are so bad this year and I usually get straight A's . It is because of the binge eating. Ew. I am so fat. I am probably 135 lbs. I can lose it though. I need to lose 50 lbs. I do not know how long that is going to take.
Today's In Take:
28 little mini carrots - 70 calories.
I hope I can get down to 85 lbs by February but as long as I get there even if it takes til May or June I will be happy.
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Hey, I am Sarah. I have had an xanga before and I tried LiveJournal. Well, for the past few months, I have been having problems binging. Some days I purge, other days I do not. It has become an addiction and I am trying to break it.
I am 5'5". In July, I was 105 lbs. Now I may be 130 lbs. I have no idea what I weigh.. BUT I WILL LOSE ALL THE LARD THAT MAKES UP MY HIDEOUS BODY!!
I hate how I look so much I HATE going to school. My grades are dropping tremendously and maybe if I think so little about food, I will get better grades.
I have tried countless times to diet since then. But none of them were good. I always ended up messing everything up. By October 2nd, I made a goal in Aug to be back down to 105 lbs ( and then I was 120 lbs ). I thought I stopped the binge eating but I was wrong. DEAD WRONG.
So I am DOING it again. Trying to lose weight.
KEEP IN MIND: I have been down to 90 lbs back in January 2006. Now LOOK AT ME-- I have a friggin fat ass. I wonder what the kids at school think. Wait a minute--- I DO NOT want to know what they think.
Ok, I have diet plans all planned out when I eat and when I fast. THis should be fun.
I am weighing in in two weeks and after that every week. I will describe more about my past eating disorders in another blog. I am getting sleepy.
My god, I am SO GROSS. Will anyone keep me going so I do not turn to FOOD?
Before I leave....
HIGHEST WEIGHT I HAVE BEEN: 145 lbs ( April 2005 )
Current: 130 lbs ( approx ) EWWWIE!!!!
LOWEST I HAVE BEEN: 91 lbs ( Jan 2006 )
First Goal Weight: 120 lbs
And I want to get down to 85 lbs. I gotta look as skinny as possible.
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